additonal pics of my neice..

My twin added these today to her website and I wanted to post them on mine..the world is happy today and for the most part so am I.

open thoughts

Strange as it may sound im sitting on my bed listening to the sound of the rain coming down, the dogs eating and my stomach growling yet these things are just that. I know I must sound weird but then no one stated I was a sane person. I have food beside me and I smell it but just get that nausaus feeling in my gut with out much notice that I haven’t eaten much at all today. But beside that it was a good quite day as Kayle was off with her best friend as usually the dogs were keeping me company until I went to the pool for a short while (its too damn hot to stay more than that) a short trip to Home depot and then home again after waiting to get by the one car accident on JTB. The rain out side that has just began to slow reminded me of the simple things in life that just start with silence. I don’t think I spoke to a soul today besides my dogs and it just makes me miss the grander things in life. I miss talking to people I miss hanging out with them I miss the simple yet joyful conversations. The dogs are the best listeners in the world but they don’t give me much in the way of the answers I have. Then as the day seeps by I usually find the answers on my own. Life is but an open door full of questions that only you have the answers for. Rain is something that gives life to the grass, trees and flowers without asking for anything in return. Dogs are happiest and content to lay next to you just waking enough everyonce in a while to make sure your there and happy with them beside you, though a few petting of the back helps to reinforce it. Kids are there to remind you no matter what happens in life you did one thing right. Friends will come Friends will leave but the few best friends you have are there no matter time nor space put between them. Family is blood and no matter how much you deny it they will always be there through the good and bad and rarely judge you on either. Ok my mind went blank so I’ll go now till another moment of inspiration hits me o my daughter comes home and i can reem her for the 40 something downloads last month that she charge on our cell phone account…makes me smile… ;0 goodnight all

My new niece Adrianne

Friends

People may seem to have a ton of friends, but to me I have to disagree. How many of those friends will be there in your time of need your time of want or your time of silence. True friends are the ones that don’t questions the motives in your life but support you regardless if they agree with your decisions or not. The past several months I have tested this account for reasons beyond explanation. For those that know me know I hold things in hoping that the either go away or I make plans to deal with them at a later time. Well until my life came crashing down a couple of months ago I never realized just how much holding in actually hurts in the long run of life. At the lowest time in my life I tried my hardest to keep everyone family friends and my daughter out of my life as I felt I didn’t deserve nor needed them in it. Though time has passed by I realize that two friends stood out amongest the rest and I never took the time to thank or appricate them as they should have been. To that point I hope they know that in my life now they mean more to me than even my own family. There are things in this life that I can only tell them and no one else.

I may not be 100% but I try hard every day to accept the things I can not change, Love the ones that are close to me and make plans for the future. I know I have my moments when life hits hard and nights I just can’t sleep through but thinking about the things I would leave behind are worse than taking the easy way out. So to my so few true friends out there I love you more than I could ever express and will not ever know how to repay the kindness and generoisty you have shown me the years I have been blessed to have you in my life. As one friend said, throughout the years even if a day, week or month passes by without a word we can always pick up like time stood still. I hope even with my up coming move that still holds true. xoxo